Why no bandage for His bliss?

One day Rabia saw a man passing on the way with his forehead tied with a bandage. She asked him why he put on the bandage. He replied that he was suffering from headache.

"What is your age?" she asked.

He replied that he was thirty.

She asked, "Till today, how have you passed your life?"

He replied, "In perfect health".

She said, "For thirty years the Lord kept you sound, and you did not fly any colors on your body to express your gratitude for His gift, so that people could ask you the reason for your joy and knowing of God's blessings on you would have praised Him, but when for your own fault you have suffered from a little headache you have tied a bandage and go about exhibiting His harshness to you in making you suffer from headache. What a base act is yours!"

The prayer of Hazrat Rabia'a

Neither this nor that world, You are enough for me

O Lord,
If tomorrow on Judgment Day
You send me to Hell,
I will tell such a secret
That Hell will race from me
Until it is a thousand years away.

O Lord,
Whatever share of this world
You could give to me,
Give it to Your enemies;
Whatever share of the next world
You want to give to me,
Give it to Your friends.
You are enough for me.

O Lord,
If I worship You
From fear of Hell, burn me in Hell.

O Lord,
If I worship You
From hope of Paradise, bar me from its gates.

But if I worship You for Yourself alone
Then grace me forever the splendor of Your Face.

how to make it happen

THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT

1. DEDICATE AN HOUR EVERYDAY FOR RE-REVIEWING CERTAIN FEW BASIC FACTS AND THEN VISUALIZING

2.HAVE A METHOD AND PATTERN AND PROCESS FOR SILVA VISUALIZATION

random new ideas that fire me up!

A year long happiness project

Reducing the number of things i own to those that define me in a very sharp and elegant manner
and in so doing define myself to myself

10 home outfits
10 out door outfits
all of which thrill my heart
and make me stand tall in appreication to my creator


only a shelf full of prized books...after all can i take them with me...so give them away now...keep a list so you can borrow them when you need them

give away everything you possibly can

free up your metaphysical energy for your self and your self definition

see if you can grow taller, slimmer, younger, and more like your vision: 5'6"; skinny enough to look good in a tee and skirt, bohemian jewelry, and easy pretty hair.

write my book on the modern interpretation of the QS

and publish n a unique format in order to get feedback

understand what i like to do, what i love

“I” and “you” are but the lattices,
in the niches of a lamp,
through which the One Light shines.
“I” and “you” are the veil
between heaven and earth;
lift this veil and you will see
no longer the bonds of sects and creeds.
When “I” and “you” do not exist,
what is mosque, what is synagogue?
What is the Temple of Fire?
- Shabestari

The important thing is not to think much,
     but to love much;
        and so, do that which best stirs you to love.

Saint Teresa of Avila

Before you ask God for what you want,
     first thank God for what
         you have.

Talmud, B'rachot 30b

I do not desire suffering;
     yet fool I am,
             I desire the cause of suffering!

Shantideva

How long will you keep pounding on an open door
     begging for someone to open it?   

Rabi'a  al-'Adawiyya 

Was the door ever closed?

Salih Qazwani always taught his disciples, "Who knocks at the door of someone constantly, one day the door must be opened to him" Rabi'a one day heard it and said,

"Salih, how long 'will you go on preaching thus, using the future tense, saying 'will be opened'? Was the door ever closed? It was ever open."

what it would mean if

I asked F yesterday about our nonexistent plan b....and he still does not know quite what it is
maybe a lifetime and childhood spent in salaried jobs takes the entreprneurship out of you
and maybe a childhood spent in company of parents who were nothing but makes it inevitable for one
Looks like i might have the independence i need
looks like he might be ok with me doing as i think best
so now that i do have this 'dheel' what do I do with it
what if i were on my own and could do as i please
what if i did not have to wait on anyone
what then
what are my dreams
do i even know that?
think on it
and ponder it?

a clinic of my own as NP could be baseline
a clinic as MD would be next step up
a clinic in non US location with tt for DM/cancer/htn/diet control
a clinic and pharmacy complex
is what i am doing now going to further the dream i have
if not then what will?
and how will i get it?

first things first:
clarify the dream
alongwith the studies, also do the practical
stay away from nursing homes unless i first take care of my elders
what feels true to me: giving health to people;showing healthy lifestyles;CURING disease; writing a book; leadership qualities; being able to talk aout ideas;
redefine myself: caring;ENERGETIC;WITH A CLEAR ODEA OF AND HAVING THE COURSE OF GETTING IN PERFECT HEALTH MYSELF FIRST !!!

goals going forward 2

meet my 10% goal in one month
be a lifetime member in 3 months
keep it that way forever
as slim as SB in this picture

goals going forward 1

A residency in internal medicine
in a US hospital that is the right fit for me
with wonderful helpful and good natured colleagues
with wonderful helpful nurturing and caring staff
with a lot of support for my growth as a professional
in a place that works for my family
with a schedule that is easy for me and my family
all in all to create a wonderful caring, nurturing experience for my professional growth
with a great job at the end of my training
to start it in 2011
as a spontaneous offer and in the easiest possible way for me
So be it!!!